SO… I have an EP coming out in tomorrow… That’s a bit crazy! Not only do I have an EP, but it has a total of six tracks, one of which I produced. WHAT?!

Confessions is my debut EP, it has a total of six tracks:

1) Confessions
2) Gone Now (Okay)
3) Games
4) Daydream
5) A Secret I’ll Never Tell
6) Games (Crow Remix)

Before I go into what all the songs are about individually, I’ll explain the EP as a whole. Confessions is aptly named as it’s an unmasked collection of parts of my life. The songs are all very personal to me, and I won’t go too far into detail about who they’re about or my actual personal situations that led me to writing all these songs but I would like to share a little bit about them. The artwork is designed by my good friend Molly, we went to school together and became good friends when we happened to sit on the same table in my sixth form art class. She’s a very talented artist who was very kind to design this for me. I initially had a different cover and name altogether but when I saw this picture she drew of me, I knew this had to be the EP cover.

Track One: Confessions - 1 Min 16 Secs

Originally named, ‘Instrumental’, Confessions actually turned out to be the first tune I wrote for the EP waaaay back in late July 2019. I was trying my hand at making a simple piano and lyric song. But, it was too simple and what I was writing to go with it didn’t match it at all. I saved the piano tune and closed the project and didn’t open it again until November 2019, when I had a little more knowledge to alter the tune and make it sound more inline with the rest of the EP that had already been created. When revisiting it, I realised it needed to sound more eerie, and electronic to suit the rest of the EP. I opted for no lyrics as it felt complete without reintroducing the original lyrics, when complete, I assigned the name Confessions so it could be the title track of the EP. Though the song has no lyrics, it was going to be about a dear friend of mine, and always reminds me of him when I hear it and reminds me of the feeling I felt when I started writing the music and lyrics. Confessions is the only song on the EP that has no lyrics and the only song that is entirely produced by me.

Track Two: Gone Now (Okay) - 3 Mins 46 Secs

As it had its own single release in October 2019, there is a stand alone blog post for Gone Now (Okay) here.

Track Three: Games - 2 Mins 47 Secs

Games also had its own single release in November 2019, a stand alone blog post can be found here.

Track Four: Daydream - 3 Mins 6 Secs

Daydream, is by far the most raw and personal track on the EP. I started this track by creating the melody and track before writing the lyrics, though I knew exactly what I wanted to say in the song. The song is a personal song about the sleep problems I’ve had on and off for a few years. I have an extremely active imagination which often gives me lots of nightmares or interesting dreams which are highlighted an lyrics in the song. The sound was inspired by a song from the video game, ‘Alice Madness Returns’ called ‘Vale of Tears’ by Jason Tai which has a similar eerie twinkling sound to it. I wanted the song to sound as repetitive and trapping as it felt to be stuck in my dreams. Every lyric used are real parts of my dreams such as “you see your old friend, you run to see him” or “you gasp for air, your stomach sinking.” It’s a very sad and real song but it was an amazing relief writing about what I had experienced. I wake up often from bad dreams or weird dreams and don’t often speak about it but I found that writing the song was a weight off of my shoulders.

Track Five: A Secret I’ll Never Tell - 3 Mins 9 Secs

Where do I start with this one? This song is (very obviously!) a song about a person who wants someone and they aren’t available to want them back. It was inspired by a missed opportunity I didn’t even realise I’d had. The song sounds like a conversation between myself and this other person, verse one sounds like I’m explaining my feelings to them and verse two would be their response. Though I hadn’t written it with that intent, it’s exactly what it sounds like reflectively. The chorus ends with “I know this is all inside my mind” because there is no way on earth I’d ever have this conversation with this person, which is why I wrote the song. This song was originally going to be the title track for the EP and the cover was completely different, but looking at all the songs I saw confessions of deepest thoughts and realised it would have to be the title, which around the time I rediscovered the song ‘Instrumental’ and remade it into ‘Confessions'.’

Track Six: Games (Crow Remix) - 3 Mins 51 Secs

On September 29th 2019, I contacted my friend and producer Crow to see if he was interested in a collaboration with me for the EP. He said yes immediately, so I offered him two songs of the songs, Games and A Secret I’ll Never Tell. On December 3rd, I received a message that said “if you’re happy, I think it’s finished" To say I was over the moon, is an understatement. I loved it from the minute I heard it and I think we’re both extremely happy with the collaboration.

With thanks,

My family: Mum, Dad, Hayley, Ally and Molly.
To those that helped with the music, artwork and videos: Thapita, Molly, Tyrone, Izzy, Scott, Bethan, Chailee and Ollie.
And lastly, to those that supported and listened to me ramble about my music: Emily, Elise, Harry, Danni and everyone at my real job!

And lastly, a massive thank you to people I don’t even know that have listened to my songs, shared them and supported me, you’re the best! <3

- Reba -